Hello Dearest, A happy new week to you all, I certainly hope this new week brings you all you wish for, including peace of mind, clarity, and joy in all you do.
Let's just go straight ahead to the topic for today, hmm…. Now have I ever broken a promise to someone, I will answer Yes and also No, I know that that sounds confusing to you right? … But alright just read further so you know why I have two answers…
You know when one decided to get married? Yeah? The whole promises that comes from both parties , how do they use to say it, “For better for worst, till death do us part” … yeah those kind of promise, let's say I broke mine but not intentionally , this is because my partner decided to do the whole breaking first by making life become miserable for me, and the living conditions of my kids were at stake.
I'm not saying I'm happy everything turned out to be this way , but we both promised to do good by each other , but along the line , things that weren't supposed to matter became things that was being put forward and I began to question my sanity ,like I am sure this is what we promised to each other? .
Like see , I know every marriage or relationship has its own flaws , but when one person thinks that , it is what he believes and knows that should always stand then there's going to be problem, this promise was broken because my life got threatened and you know that life has no duplicate, it is not something that you will beg Baba God to give you second chance at and you will come back to life after going dead.
It wasn't a really easy decision for me because I had to deal with a lot of things. Physical abuse, emotional abuse, mental abuse in fact, I had to face a lot of gossips, a lot of insults from people here and there, this people do not even know half of the story, I sometimes pray that they enter my shoes and experience the things I had to go throughh, I had to withdraw myself to my inner shell, I was just there being observant and just surviving.
So if you ask me if it was for a good reason the promise we made was broken, I believe I will leave that to you to decide wether it was a good one or a bad one, because I for one , I'm done trying to give myself that talk if it was a good reason or not, what I just cared for was my life , and how my kids will grow up in a kind of condition where everyday they are seeing their young parents throwing big big offensive words at each other and becoming physical at given times.
If for any reason I want to say anything ,I will pick that it is for a good reason , so everyone can have their rest. Right now I do not believe in anything called “Love that lasts forever”…… Nah! , what I believe in right now is Peace of mind for everyone. And that is what I have now chosen for myself every single day, and that is what has become the most important promise I can give myself now.
